Woohooo!!! Im starting to like this weight watchers thing!!!!

I'm enjoying my time eating. I can eat almost whatever i want, Just watch  my points. Its fun now. When i officially started weight watchers i was over 200 cause of the time of the month...yea ladies you know!!! I'm really excited im loosing a lot in a week. Of course loosing water due to mother nature does help but this is good boost. I'm gonna how far i can go for this week. I did Weight watchers before but it didn't really work for me because i kept watching the points way too much. The points are there for reference but you can eat everything literally...Just watch the amount of points your eating....well im off again to prepare for NCLEX yikkess...





Wisdom: Don't be a guard dog when on a diet. Eat what u like to eat, just minimize it, you'll be eating a lot more in a day!!

FATHER'S DAY SPECIAL...INCLUDES GUILT AND DISSAPOINTMENT

...SO FATHER'S DAY WAS PRETTY INTERESTING. MY MOTHER BEING THE LOVELY CARIBBEAN COOK THAT SHE IS, MADE OXTAIL, PUMPKIN SOUP, RICE, CURRY BEEF, YEA...ANYWAY I STILL HAVENT STARTED WEIGHT WATCHERS YET, BUT SUNDAY WAS ALOT FOR ME. MY BODY IS STILL FEELING A BIT HEAVY TODAY I WENT RUNNING AND I COULDN'T REALLY RUN ALOT. I HAD NO ENERGY TODAY THE EXTRA FOOD WEIGH ME DOWN...AS IM WORKING ON MY HEALTH AND FITNESS , I AM LEARNING MANY THINGS ABOUT MY SELF AND MY HEALTH. YESTERDAY WE ORDERED PIZZA AND I WAS FALLING ALSEEP WATCHING A MOVIE.   I HAVENT HAD CARBS LIKE THAT SINCE ABOUT 6 MONTHS...i have found that protein agrees with me more in the morning than carbs. I do like carbs but i need them in the afternoon. This is actually becoming an enjoyment for me. Now i know how my body works, i can stay awake longer and hopefully be able to concentrate : )   Happy Eating!!!!

EHHHH...MY FIRST WEEK!!!

SO MY FIRST WEEK NOT SO GREAT. I WAS NOT SO CONSCIOUS WITH WHAT I WAS PUTTING IN MY MOUTH...and when i was i just didn't care, i was really hungry! They say it is important to be conscious but for me being conscious means having no fun in eating. I like to eat whatever i want but now i am being selfish to my body. I must treat it as a temple. I am suffering now from pain in my ankles. I have to keep my leg raised sometimes and keep doing ankle exercises for them. The more exercise i do the less pain i feel. Being conscious to me means night and day thinking  about what i eat when i eat and how i eat!!! like the food mafia lol I cant be free. Which is why i need to join a eating plan so i can learn how to eat comfortably healthy and not put so much work into what i eat. 

   Weight Watchers was one of the diets i did a long time ago. It was good for my mom she enjoyed it because she was very easy going with it. But i figured that you are supposed to follow the rules as such. SO i did but i didn't do well. i think i lost 2 lb. the first week and then the following i lost even smaller and smaller and then i started gaining. It was a little frustrating but i was following what i was supposed to follow. Im curious how to actually work. The thing is I'm so used to being fat all my life... I mean technically I've been on a diet since i was 10...I'm 27 years old now..single, just graduated, and looking for work...Its been 17 years where I have been treated a certain way, accepted a certain way. Now i want to change my entire look. This will change everything for me. I mean now i am getting looks a lot more, but for me it will change everything!! and Im really scared!!! I mean I'm really scared how will i change when this happens? WHAT WILL HAPPEN TO THE PEOPLE AROUND ME!!! How will i act will I be more selfish less forgiving...A BITCH???? hahaha Well the only way to get through this is to surrender the problem and let it happen. No restrictions...Some Wisdom: One summer i ran everyday for 4 weeks..I didn't realize this until now...But i ran for 4 weeks building up stamina and doing squats and sit-ups  and i realized my body changed very dramatically. I did really well. I like to swim also but the jogging is different.....hmmmm 


You know sometimes you lose weight out of a whim and gain it back when school starts, you become depressed and then go back to your regular life and become a little happy again but in the back of your mind u wanna loose weight and don't know what to do lol....YOU realize what u did before did work.. Sometimes circumstances changes it doesn't mean you have to change your routine...The workout is a stress reliever so keep moving wherever u are...It will keep your stress down and keep your weight down too!!

IT'S SUMMER ...

  

AND I WANNA WEAR A BIKINI! 

You know...for those out there who can wear a two piece and feel comfortable in their own skin, brava! What does it mean to wear a bikini anyway? I mean a bathing suit should give you confidence; it should not be used to show off your body in vulgar ways but somehow help you in confidence. Bathing suit should make you feel good in the summer!!! It should be a happy time for you so whatever you wear should express that. I know some people that do wear two pieces for themselves or for others. You can definitely tell the diff..some ladies will wear a bathing suit that is very daring, vulgar or doesn't fit right...some ladies will wear it to suit their bodies and doesn't seem to care what anyones thinks about their suit.

...For me it would be a big goal of mine because i am self conscious about my weight and then my legs which has quite a bit of cellulite.   Recently i got this bathing suit for a quite a bit of money but the make and color suits me pretty well. I was never into any crazy looking bathings suits.. they were all black lol...like that would hide any extra fat lol.  Well it did...but after a while the bathing suits i have worn i have noticed before were not doing anything for my figured they actually made it worse for me. It did not give me any confidence, did not hide my figure and made me look bigger...haha Now im using this great one piece swimsuit that looks good on me. I feel more confident when i go in and out of the pool..even during swimming...Wisdom: whether or not you are tiny big boned, muscular or very large, it does not matter what size is your body...Find a bathing suit that suits your body respectfully and beautifully. SO what if you cant fit into a two piece, your not a gonna buy it anyway, right? Find a bathing suit that brings out your skin tone, your eyes and if you wanna hide your stomach or lift your bosom, there are many bathing suits out there to pick from...and by more than one at least you'll have an option to look beautiful!!!


So look beautiful!!! Everyone can!!!

Feelin good as long as im movin!!!

Ha i just realize one thing. If you are depressed about loosing weight, its because your not exercising. When you do exercise, you feel better cause your sweating and working hard. As long as Im moving i will never feel inadequate about myself , because i know as long as i am moving, i am getting closer to my goal weight every day...As Long as I am Moving!!! Feels good. 
Today I went into the pool for 30 minutes... it was a crazy workout and you can last much longer in the water because of the gravity and because its cooler in the water. Another tip: go in the water..Even if you cant swim, use a kick board and go back and forth in the pool. Start off slow. You will feel your legs working 10 times harder than if you were on the floor. : )